When you feel like you're "too much"
From the time I was a teenager, a belief and story was starting to form within me...
that I was...
thinking too much
needing to voice my thoughts too much
and not enough _______.
If I wasn't as "much" and I was just "less muted" then I would be easier to deal with.
For 8 years, I escaped into relationships to find comfort.
Until I realized...
they weren't giving me the comfort, love and healing my heart truly needed...
and often the same repeating story would occur of feeling misunderstood and again, "too much".
I was forced to begin looking at myself...
on my own 😬
A tough four years was spent being single,
where I spent much of it learning, healing and practicing finding greater love, peace and comfort within myself.
and to learn that no, I wasn't "too much" of anything.
An astrologer and energy healer once told me in regards to relationships,
"You don't need to feel completely understood by someone"
"You're really complex, conceptual and analytical with a lot of emotion mixed in as well"
(Best description of me I've heard lol)
"Try to let go of needing to be understood. Just love, laugh and have fun"